Stressful

It's almost 2am now and I just got home from work. :(
It's been a stressful week for me. This work really draining me, I can't do this. How??? When is it going to end?? It's not just the workload, but the timeline and responsibility. Seriously I think I am not capable in this. I'm just gonna screw it up big time. How? HOW? HOW?????

Not a DBA

After 5++ years of being a DBA, I'm no longer one. :S

Seriously I was quite reluctant when I first get the news. Lame to say, being a DBA is my passion since my undergraduate years; and that's what I told my manager when I was a management trainee during my first job. Along the way in my career path, I'm very lucky to always have some real good senior that willing to guide me; till now I still keep in touch with most of them and always get advise from them when I come into problem - be it db-related or personal matter.

And now, I was being transffered to performance testing (PT) team. I know nothing in PT and I feel like a fresh grad again. What's test scenario? how to comes out the test case? how to set the target timing? I have no clue at all about it. In mere few days, I'm drowning in loads of information given to me; how can I put all those pieces of information into one? It's not easy to me; especially when I'm working on one of the most complex system in Malaysia, I have to understand every applications and every new functionalities in details. I need to transform my "select, insert, commit" kind of thinking logic into "how, why, when". I'm so pressure now, what if I can't do it? :S

Argh~~~ I am struggling so much while stepping out from my comfort zone. My not-so-full-grown-wing was being taken away and now I'm on the ground learning how to walk all over again. I'm so exhausted, both physically and mentally. I have been working more than 12 hours per day since.. I lost count. And today is Sat and I'm in the office now.

Anyway, after days of transition, I start to get a hang of it, I can see a "dim" light up there that might be able to guide me out of the tunnel, who knows it might be just a reflection of dung of some unknown endangered species. :S. Ok lar, must show the CAN-DO atitude la, I don't want to screw things up, and I want to say I'm darn lucky again because I have a bunch of real good team members that can back me up, just hope that they don't leave me behind la (sad to say, they are all foreigners, sound like sooner or later they still need to leave me behind) :S