27 weeks

I need to refer to my calendar to know I'm at week 27 now. It used to be off the top of my heads in my 1st and early 2nd trimester whenever people ask me which week I'm on.

Just weight myself and I've gained a total of 10kg now. I'm feeling so so so heavy already. Perhaps with my shorter torso, I find it even difficult to just sit straight. All I want to do it lie down on bed. Still got 3 months to go ler, hou san fu aaarrrgghhhh.....

2 years down.. another 2 years

Time flies, it's been two years since I came to SG. Well, it doesn't really that blink of an eye; in fact it's been stressful for the past 2 years.

I wasn't intend to settle down in SG initially. Then the whole thing about for a better future of next generation changed my mindset; although Danny has been wanted to settle down in SG since the beginning. 

It's not an easy decision to make; especially for us who already having an established life in Malaysia. We gotta start from beginning to start our new life, Danny and I are working really hard on this. It might not be frugal living, but there is a big portion of our monthly income that goes into the commitment and savings towards our purpose. And now you know why am I feeling annoyed when people say we are having good life because we are earning SGD, that sound really sarcastic because those who say so apparently are having a better life than us in Malaysia.

So it's been two years now. I guess we are progressing well. We bought a condo, we are expecting new family member, we are able to afford some vacations.. things are on track and all we need now is continue working hard and wait for the day to move in our new place. Which is another 2 years for the construction to complete. 

I remember the day Danny and I booked the condo; it's the second happiest moment I had in SG (of coz the first goes to we found out we have a bun in the oven), and I thought it's the end of my distress for wanted to settle down as early as we can in sg. But recently I've been feeling stressful and emotional again; perhaps the pregnancy hormonal change; but I believe it's also due to the additional financial burden while we are expecting the little one; plus the retrenchment rumors circulating in my workplace. Well, actually there is nothing much I can do at the moment, so I'm writing this post just to remind myself to cherish what I have and hang on there for another 2 years. Just can't wait to end our nomad life..

Feel the bun kicking for the first time, I think

I'm at my 15w/5d today and I think I felt our baby's movement for the first time! I'm not very sure though coz it might be just gas rumbling or simply due to the abdominal stretched.

So I was lying on bed chatting with Danny on whatapps, then suddenly I felt a tapping sensation from inside my tummy. I thought it was my shorts that is too tight causing the discomfort so I took off the pant (:p). Then I felt it again! I think BB was happy because I just had a very hearty meal. The feeling was so amazing I just dunno how to describe it. I told Danny immediately and it might sound silly but next thing I know I found myself tearing, blame the pregnancy hormone again. Hehe

Bb, u must behaved guai guai in mummy's tummy o. Daddy and mummy can't wait to see u in July and we promise will shower you with loads of love.

P/S :
So the "kick" I felt wasn't the real baby movement. lol. Coz I didn't feel it anymore after that until I'm at week 21 which is few days ago. I finally felt the real quickening few days ago and this time I'm confirmed.

It's not a tapping sensation like how I described previously, instead it's like popcorn popping or hunger pang. And while I put my hand on my tummy I can actually feel it! It's so amazing and I just can't help to giggle everytime I feel it. It's just soooo amazing I have no other better word to describe it.

While we are expecting our little one #2 - first trimester

I'm always an optimistic person and I thought I will be the lucky one who doesn't need to go through morning sickness in my pregnancy. I WAS SO WRONG! in fact my morning sickness was quite bad I almost cried every few days; not sure it was due to the discomfort from morning sickness or the hormone. 

At week 6, I was still happily telling Lezann and the peeps I am not feeling any discomfort and everyone thought I am so lucky. Then my morning sickness kicks in at week 8 and it totally change my world. I couldn't enjoy any food and I was so fatigue all the time all I wanna do is lay on bed for the whole day. The usual 10-15 minutes walking distance to MRT station is killing me everyday and it's very silly but yes I cried few times while I'm walking home from MRT station. Arghh, blame the hormone again.

I feel so nausea all day, not just morning, I had no appetite to eat yet feeling hungry every few hours. The nausea gets worse whenever I'm hungry, so I had to force myself to eat then put up with the softer version of queasiness throughout the day. I didn't throw up although I'm feeling nausea until I reach week 10, then  I ran to toilet several times a day to puke. However, puking is not too bad as I felt much better after doing so. Just tat sometimes I have to be quick in spotting a toilet whenever I need it.

Then once I entered into second trimester at week 13, the morning sickness just magically gone overnight. One day before I was still hugging the toilet bowl to cry, the next day I woke up and feeling all energetic and wanna eat all the food I can. How funny yet big relief to me, of coz to Danny too. :D

Now I look back, it was just a month that I suffered the morning sickness but it seems like years for me when I was going through it. I'm literally counting day by day and thought I will never get back my normal diet anymore. How silly.

At this moment I'm in my second trimester, I still feeling nausea sometimes, but not too frequent, I can finally enjoy my food; although still not as enjoyable as before pregnancy. I'm still feeling hungry every 2-3 hours. I do have some new symptoms such as rapid heart rate, minor leg cramp and itchy skin. Aside from these I'm feeling energetic, happy, and all positive. ^___^ 

I know I will suffer again when third trimester come, so I better enjoy myself to the max during this period. Continue my queen treatment at home by Danny. :p

While we are expecting our little one #1 - how we found out

I'm writing this post at my week 9 pregnancy; but I'm probably publishing it in the second trimester :D

It's Chinese pantang to keep it as a secret until second trimester but I just couldn't resist but have told a lot of my friends already as early as week 6. lol.. Anyway, at least I'm not announcing it on FB. :p

So how did we find out? It was during my trip to HK. Since I've been TTC (trying to conceive) for some times, I actually bring along the pregnancy test kit with me because my period will be due during the trip. :p

The day before I tested it, Danny and I went to the famous Wong Dai Sin temple and I "kao chim" and asked when will I have a baby, the chim said it will come in autumn. Then the next day I tested with pregnancy test kit and it return positive. Amazing or not? It's really autumn in lunar calendar lo..

The reason I so gan jeong to test it was because we actually planning to attend the wine & dine festival in HK, and I wanted to play safe not to drink if I were pregnant. So in the end I didn't drink lo, hehe, and thats how Doreen find it suspicious and keep asking if I'm "yao jor". lol

I tested it on tat day my period due, the double lines on the pregnancy test kit was very light. When I showed it to Danny, he just refuse to believe I'm pregnant and didn't show much response. Grrrhh!!! I'm so disappointed, I've been always fantasy on how big reaction can Danny be when he knows tat he is becoming a daddy soon.

Then we return from HK and I tested again with home pregnancy test kit, the double has become very obvious, and we know it's confirmed. Then Danny start becoming all bossy. No cold drinks, no fast food, no instant noodle, no late night sleep and etc. Good side of it, also no house chore… Danny is doing all of it! He do all the house chore, prepare food for me (either tapao or cook by himself), make milk for me whenever I'm hungry and putting up with my temper whenever my hormone acting up. I know I'm such a lucky gal and I'm blessed with a supportive husband.

Happy go lucky

So things got settled by itself. Everything back to normal, business as usual.

So I was worried for months for nothing. In fact, a friend of mine told me I doesn't seems like worrying much, so she said this is happy go lucky literally. LOL

Well, so my motto of life now is stay happy so I can go lucky all the time! I still need that a lot.

Happy birthday to myself

(not in the mood of blogging in English)

今天是我的３１岁生日。。 酸酸的，忧忧的。。最近还蛮＂诸事不顺＂。。事业遇到了一个大危机，想要的不断尝试却不断失望，身边也失去了一些东西，就连Goppy也将离我而去，情绪低落。。

昨天切了个蛋糕，已经有好多年都没有切生日蛋糕了。。许了个愿，希望愿望成真。。

Update :

This was my facebook status, I really mean it. Things may be tough now, but it will be fine, it's just the matter of time. Tough time don't last, tough people do. Ush!

It's been one of those days recently, but all the birthday wishes I receive just reminds me of how lucky I am to be surrounded by lovely friends and family all the time. I am counting my blessing and I believe everything will be fine soon. Thank you so much for the birthday wishes and it means a lot to me. — feeling blessed.